Lady Optimistic

I read a lot of Pema Chodron. And I read her stuff and I’m like, “Wow, I totally get it!” And then, two seconds later it leaves me. I guess that is why you gotta practice. I think that is why in Buddhism they call it practice.

Anyway, the more I read, the more two things happen… I forget more, but at the same time I just seem to get it.

What is it I am getting? More connection with the world.

Although, I would have to say that one reason why all this is easier is because I don’t spend my days with people who hate me and who are waiting for me to fail so that it can be publicly displayed.

I had no idea how awful my employment situation was until I got a new job. Now I work with people who, dare I say, might actually kinda love me? I am starving to death due to the low salary, but I want to spend all my time and energy with these people, doing their work. They are kind, happy, hardworking, straightforward, full of integrity. They don’t play games. Its beautiful. I even feel more beautiful when I am there with them.

My heart, my core, my soul, is healing with every interaction.

And maybe I am ready for this because I am learning to make space and trust.

And I kinda feel strong.

Or I am bi-polar and I need to go shopping 🙂

*Disclaimer: I don’t spell. Get over it. I also don’t proof read. Get over that, too. This is me, raw, uncensored and joyous.